It's a slippery slope though, if you keep thinking about it you may find it hard to hold onto your belief.

If I cannot hold onto a belief it isn't worth holding on to.

Maybe in a few days you should make a top-level post about your beliefs and we can try to examine the reasons why you believe the way you do, and try and understand why you are comfortable with conflicting beliefs. No pitchforks, I promise, you seem to know the linguistic patterns to use here so that no one will pounce on you.

My current plan is to inch into the heavy topics with a few basic posts about belief, doubt, and self-delusion. But I know some of these things are discussed elsewhere because I remember someone at OB talking about the plausibility of self-delusion.

In any case, I am still working through the Sequences. I expect a lot of my questions are answered there.