If you haven't already, read BLIT. I'm feeling rather like the protagonist.

Every additional angle, no matter how indirect, gets me closer to seeing that which I Must Not Understand. Though I'm taking it on faith that this is the case, I have reason to think the faith isn't misplaced. It's a very disturbing experience.

I think I'll go read another thread now. Or wait, better yet, watch anime. There's no alcohol in the house..