I... had a similar problem, as a result of spending lots of time thinking about these topics.

and... I went as far as starting a project to construct something vaguely similar to a utilitometer.

and... I got stuck in an affective death spiral about this project.

and... I ended up throwing a ridiculous amount of time, money, and effort at this project.

I seem to be mostly recovered from the affective death spiral now, but now I'm having trouble with the sunk cost fallacy.

I was considering writing a top-level post about this project to LW, but I still haven't even managed to do a good job of describing what the project is. And it's really obvious now that the project is a whole lot more difficult and a whole lot less useful than I originally hoped.

I still don't actually have anything to show for my efforts so far. But I still might as well post some links here to what little I do have:

The "official project page" at lifeboat.com

a first attempt to describe the project, on the transhumanist wiki