No, I don't think so. "What I actually am", if I'm understanding Vladimir correctly, refers to the actual actions I take under various situations.

For example, if I believe I'm the sort of person who would throw the fat man under the train, but in fact I would not throw the fat man under the train, then I've successfully signaled to myself my status as a fat-man-under-train-thrower (I wonder if that's an allowed construction in German), but I am not actually a fat-man-under-train-thrower.