Okay, I don't mean to be annoying, but I'm curious if anyone else ever thinks this way.

Right after I read this: "Those who do it well are rare and valuable", this is what I automatically thought: 'Okay, so he's setting himself up to, in the future, pursue a career in explaining, and this sentence/article functions as a tool of justification by making the value of the endeavor "objective" through writing it here'

That is, some part of me sometimes leaps away from the normal way of reading--which sees things as from the writer to yourself--and considers the writer as writing from himself to himself, unconsciously using writing as a selfish tool to shape the narrative of his/her life.

I think this has something to do with the fact that I am probably way too pessimistic about humans in general and think that much of what we say masquerades as something virtuous like reasonableness but is really functioning in a very self-oriented way to affirm and justify oneself and that one's life is a good (enough) life. Has anyone else's thoughts while reading anything ever flinched in this direction? [p.s. this has nothing to do with lukeprog, in fact he's probably my favorite writer here]