I'm still curious, however, about your answer to my original question. If it should happen that tomorrow I find myself in the state of believing I would be happier were you dead, what do you think I ought to do about that?

Or, if the answer is different: If it should happen that tomorrow you find myself in the state of believing you would be happier were I dead, what do you think you ought to do about that? (Given that I too have not declared Crocker's Rules.)

I mean, I understand that you don't think we should actually tell each other about it, but I'm wondering if that's all there is to say on the matter... just keep the feeling secret and go on about our business normally?