Hi Rada, welcome to Lesswrong!

I share your aversion for reductionism, at least from an emotional albeit not epistemical point of view. I'm afraid we have to deal with living in a reductionistic universe. But e.g. this post might persuade you that even a reductionistic universe can sometimes be quite charming, although by no means perfect.

Oh, and yay for Camus! (Although "Nausea" is obviously far superior to "The Stranger" :-) )