I am entirely incapable or many of the things mentioned, I am unable to commit or fully participate due to helth and geographical reasons, and a bunch of other things...

On the other hand I have a feeling feeling of ability to be useful, despite all those things. This kind of deliberate growing of intuitions and making the brain do some specific thing is right up my alley and I might be very good at coming up with certain types of examples or providing a certain kind of hard to articulate meta intuition. I also know a bunch abaut art and design.

I'd also likely find it great fun and far more meaningful than anything I normally do.

So this is a bit of a dillema, what should I do?