Out of curiosity, what are your current thoughts on the arguments you've laid out here?

Strong enough to justify the existence of an organisation like SIAI. Everything else is a matter of expected utility calculations. Which I am not able to handle. Not given my current education and not given my psyche.

I know how what I am saying is incredible repugnant to some people here. I see no flaws. But I can't help but flinch away from taking all those ideas seriously. Although I am currently trying hard. I suppose the post above is a baby-step.

This video pretty much is the window to my soul. You see how something can be completely rational yet feel ridiculous?

Less Wrong opens up the terrifying vistas of reality that I tried to flee from since a young age.

The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.

-- The Call of Cthulhu

I felt compelled to try and see if I can make it all vanish.