"Benefit to you" is defined in exactly the manner in which it is; I have some conscious input into what benefits me, but not conscious fiat.

If you have trouble interacting long-term with people, try a different style: meet people in a strongly structured format and only slowly move outside of that structure. I find gaming clubs useful for that; bridge might be the best case, because it is very much structured even in playing, and is normally a significantly different demographic than I think you are.

What I am suggesting you look for is an amateur counselor. Professional counseling is expensive, ineffective, and scary (ask anyone who's been threatened with institutionalization). I think that finding one in meatspace is a better return on investment for your time than finding one on the internet.