Heh. Believe it or not, that's not as much of a problem. I've lived with constant suicidal ideation for almost 27 years now, since I was 12. I've become almost completely inured to it, and I've performed enough unsuccessful attempts that my mid-brain has learned very well not to bother. It's amusing to think that learned helplessness can be turned into a tool to combat suicidal ideation, but there it is. (I imagine this is why so many anti-depressants increase the risk of suicide - the learned helplessness is a tighter cycle, so it gets lifted faster, at which point the ideation hasn't faded yet and suddenly you imagine the possibility of something actually working, and it all finally being over for real.)