I'm probably underweighing more conservative assessments like this, so I appreciate it.
motivation and self-delusion
I have not collected evidence the directly contradicts statistical assessments regarding the conscientiousness trait. Instead I'm making an inference based off a collection of evidence that I can name. I don't think I've given much consideration to evidence strength yet so working through this will be a good exercise.
For example:
Historically my conscientiousness has been quite low in part due to depression. I've been coming out of that depression recently, and have improved in my ability to keep on task even when I'm discouraged. Oftentimes psyching myself out was the reason why I haven't instigated behavioral change, because when I fall off the bandwagon I don't get back on. This change towards optimism makes me feel comparatively more competent and willing to explore my alternatives for support and skills.
Though, as a counterpoint: I am not experiencing mania, but the fact that I've recently acquired and optimistic temperament that has not been subject to calibration by the new action-space means that I might still be overestimating my abilities instead of underestimating them.
But given that I am strongly interested in doing things that successful people do that I couldn't before:
Nick Winter's assessments in his book "The Motivation Hacker" make me believe that there exists low hanging fruit when it comes to motivation that I have not yet picked. I would guess the same for typically surveyed people due to the recency of prescriptive motivation literature like "The Procrastination Equation".
Successful students and learners follow regular patterns of behavior that can be turned into habits. The particular examples would be the writings of Cal Newport, Scott H Young, in addition to consulting my academic advisors and the successful students themselves. Needless to say I probably haven't been using those patterns, which include precommtiments, oicking a good study environment and using it regularly, processing textbooks in a way that produces reviewable notes, and using office hours.
Twin and developmental studies might make me eat my dust on this if I'm directly challenging claims about a personality trait. I'm feeling a bit of resistance to looking them up but I should probably push through it and get it over with.
There are other conditions by which the amount of work and stress that someone can take on goes up, like joining the military; yes, I'm considering it. But there are also less extreme options like just having good health and being more organized, taking up a martial art or doing a sport. Not all of these are going to take off and most certainly I won't be doing all of them at once. So one obstacle I need to consider is the timeframe towards orienting myself properly for success in biomedical and whether the value is greater or lower than lost wages or other measures of opportunity cost.
I have also experimented with nootropics, which I know believe are overrated but still a useful tool in the toolkit. Finally I am beginning to use Anki, which might be a good way of managing larger volumes of knowledge.
At this point I would like to get answers to my questions on actual working conditions, hiring practices, and future work opportunities. Grabbing all of the experiences with the largest decision-relevant information:cost ratio possible could help me resolve whether this plan will work out. This is unless all of the evidence from current models is substantial enough to outweigh the potential evidence from empiricism.
computer science and self-study; old people
There are at least two components here: the actual studying and skill acquisition, and the judgement made by the hiring practitioner.
I read on Less Wrong in this popular PSA that a handful of people have managed to get programming jobs through self-study. Although it seems reckless - would it be possible to define a satisficing case for the amount of practice that I would do towards the profile of skills of what a hiring person would want from their employee? This would help resolve the following:
I could talk to HR people or other software engineers at developer meetups, or at career fairs, to get a clearer picture on this. But if like you claim this is a political factor, then maybe I won't be getting the evidence I need.
You need to find a job you can be satisfied first, and one that's doing the right thing second; you won't be productive if you're unhappy.
I'll keep this in mind. It does seem safer.
Getting the actual programming skills is easy if you're smart. Getting the evidence that will lead people to hire you is harder. Large companies tend to go by the book; you will need the qualifications or something unusual like a personal recommendation from someone in the company. Startuppy places it's more about fitting in with the culture and talking/coding well in interview. If that's the kind of job you're after you'll probably be fine as a self-taught programmer if you can perform under interview pressure and you conform to the right stereotype. (it's possible I'm being excessively cynical here)
I wrote this post up and circulated it among my rationalist friends. I've copied it verbatim. I figure the more rationally inclined people that can critique my plan the better.
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TL;DR:
* I'm going to commit to biomedical engineering for a very specific set of reasons related to career flexibility and intrinsic interest.
* I still want to have computer science and design arts skills, but biomedical engineering seems like a better university investment.
* I would like to have my cake and eat it too by doing biomedical engineering, while practicing computer science and design on the side.
* There are potential tradeoffs, weaknesses and assumptions in this decision that are relevant and possibly critical. This includes time management, ease of learning, development of problem solving solving abilities and working conditions.
I am posting this here because everyone is pretty clever and likes decisions. I am looking for feedback on my reasoning and the facts in my assumptions so that I can do what's best. This was me mostly thinking out loud, and given the timeframe I'm on I couldn't learn and apply any real formal method other than just thinking it through. So it's long, but I hope that everyone can benefit by me putting this here.
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So currently I'm weighing going into biomedical engineering as my major over a major in computer science, or the [human-computer interaction/media studies/gaming/ industrial design grab bag] major, at Simon Fraser University. Other than the fact that engineering biology is so damn cool, the relevant decision factors include reasons like:
The two implications here are that even if I am still interested in computer science, which I am, and although biomedical engineering is less upwind than programming and math, it makes more sense to blow a lot of money on a more specialized education to get domain knowledge while doing computer science on the side, than to spend money on an option whose potential cost is so low because of self study. This conjecture, and the assumptions therein, is critical to my strategy.
So the best option combination that I figure that I should take is this:
Tradeoffs exist, of course. These are a few that I can think of:
There is still the issue of assuring more-than-dilettante expertise in computer science and design stuff (see Expert Beginner syndrome: http://www.daedtech.com/how-developers-stop-learning-rise-of-the-expert-beginner). I am semi-confident in my ability to network myself into mentorships with members of faculty [at SFU] that are not my own, and if I'm not good at it now I still believe that it's possible. In addition, my dad has recently become a software consultant and is willing to apprentice me, giving a direct education about software engineering (although not necessarily a good one, at least it's somewhat real).
There are potential weaknesses in my analysis and strategy.
So for this "have cake and eat it to" plan to work there are a larger string of case exceptions in the biomedical option than the computing options, and definitely the media and design option. The reward would be that the larger amount of domain specific knowledge in a field that has held my curiosity for several years now, while hitting on. I would also be playing to one of SFU's comparative advantages: the quality of the biomedical faculty here is high relative to other institutions if the exceptions hold, and potentially the relative quality of the computer science and design faculties as well. (This could be an argument for switching institutions if those two skillsets are a "better fit". However, my intuition is that the cost for such is very high and probably wouldn't be worth it.)
Possible points of investigation:
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Thoughts, anyone?