No, I don´t try to defend my beliefs to you.

Then what exactly is going on here?

The point of looking at your belief's real weak points is that it's easy to find strong points to attack, and thus one can feel like they've engaged with their doubts when in fact they have avoided them.

Is asking us to find the weak spots of your particular flavor of Christianity attacking a weak point, or attacking a strong point? If you look back over your comments, you will note a number of times when you talk about not expecting people to understand, or pointing out that you don't believe the various things that people are pointing out as weak spots in other forms of Christianity. It seems to me that this allows you to claim that you have exposed your beliefs to attack and them have survived--when, in fact, that is not so.

To elaborate, consider the following:

The amount of upovotes you got here proves to anyone actually reading my comments and understanding them, just how little you actually pay attention to my what I actually say and just how pointless it is for a theist to try to discuss religion here on LW.

Is this what it looks like to attack a weak point, or a strong point? Was the goal here to reach mutual understanding, or to show that LWers aren't capable of discussing religion?

Note that in the comment that started this all, you claimed that you had found some weak spots on your own. Why, then, are you not talking about those? Suppose you knew that at the end of this conversation you would be a convinced atheist, and you were trying to minimize the amount of time it would take to get to that conclusion. Would you have said the same things in the same way?

(I apologize for the Bulverism, but in this context it seems unavoidable. Just asking you to search your motivations doesn't seem likely to succeed, because I want to raise this specific hypothesis.)

The hipocrits here downvoting all of my comments, even those not related to this, simply does it as a punishment for my insolence, something they think they are entitled to because of their Tribal status as atheists, and my inferior status as a theist. I must admit I was originally expecting more of this community.

This is an example of the kind of thing that convinces me you're not here for genuine questioning. A person who is truly trying to doubt, and who specifically asked for others to raise questions of their own, would not call those other people hypocrites. And note that you're calling people hypocrites in response to, of all things, downvotes? All of this says to me that your primary attitude toward the people here is one of hostility. Ask yourself this: is hostility really the right way to respond to questioners whom you yourself asked to question your beliefs? Moreover, is it psychologically realistic that a person with genuine doubts would become so hostile toward his/her questioners at so slight a provocation? Maybe I'm misreading you here, but somehow, I doubt that's the case.

We're not the ones drawing the tribal lines here; you are. Maybe your original comment started out as a genuine request for discussion; I don't know. But somewhere along the line, that sincerity of doubt got lost, and this became another one of those tired, rehashed debates about Christianity versus atheism. You're on the "Christianity" side; we're on the "atheism" side. That's how you've labeled us in your mind: as enemies on a different side of a tribal war. Arguments become soldiers, any ground conceded whatsoever is viewed as some sort of "loss", and that's why you're so eager to accuse everyone here who disagrees with you of hypocrisy.

(Note: I have downvoted none of your comments myself, but I can understand why some others have been doing so. As MarkusRamikin pointed out, you've been doing surprisingly little to make your position arguable, either for or against, and the insults and accusations of "hypocrisy" you've been hurling at people really haven't been helping the matter. At any rate, a bit of advice: don't take karma all that seriously. People aren't downvoting due to some personal or tribal vendetta. Treat downvotes simply as slightly noisy signals of what LW users do not approve of, and would like to see less of in the future. As the age-old saying goes, "It's nothing personal.")

I don't know much about the different sects of Christianity, but I do know when someone is being overly belligerent when they shouldn't. The fact that you're acting so belligerent about this is what originally made me wonder if you were really trying to question your beliefs. (As dxu said, a real person trying to question their beliefs wouldn't attack people they asked to help in the first place.)

No, I don´t try to defend my beliefs to you. I don´t even want you to convert. I want you to walk your own ways in life and come up with your own conclusions.

If the atheists are wrong and you're right and God does exist, I'm sure they'd like to know about it so they can update their beliefs! And if they're right and you're wrong, wouldn't you like to know about it so you can update your beliefs? After all, there's only one reality out there, either God exists or he doesn't. If you really think you're right about God existing, you should be trying to convert us.

Albert Einstein was a hardcore theist

I know this is a totally tangential issue, but: No, he really wasn't. See, e.g., this Wikipedia article.

Can you please explain why you believe in your God, and not all the others?

I can honestly not imagine how it is to live in a place where people look up to you if you say that you are christian.

That is a statement about your own lack of imagination and lack of thinking ability. Saying things like that invites downvotes much more than being Christian.

The hipocrits here downvoting all of my comments, even those not related to this, simply does it as a punishment for my insolence, something they think they are entitled to because of their Tribal status as atheists, and my inferior status as a theist. I must admit I was originally expecting more of this community.

That's passive aggressive and ignores that this community does have well respected Christians with karma > 2000 and 96% approval rate.

The idea that you get downvoted because you are Christian is an excuse.

The most important messages Jesus tried to teach us, whether he was mortal or not, is that we should love each other and that children are the saviours of this world. [...] I believe in love, that is my personal and universal God.

I don't think you do well in that front.