Past comments of yours seem to have been trying for actual communication of actual meaning with clarity. No pseudo-mystical mumbo-jumbo but rather thoughts clearly expressed.

So indeed something is not adding up, but it's you who may be acting radically different, not the rest of us who are downvoting anything we'd have upvoted in the past: So I'm asking you for you own health's sake -- have you been doing any new drugs recently, or perhaps stopped or changed any prescription medicine you were taking?