I hardly think you "infiltrated"

This was tongue-in-cheek of course.

but I caution against going back

I'm not planing to, even though I'm very very very sure about not getting fooled (I've been through Chrisitanity too in my youth, I've escaped with my own strength without external help or inspiration, and have since converted a few people to atheism).

I don't plan to go back because it would be a waste of my emotional energy that I could use to work on rationality communities (that I actually care about). Pretty much what you are trying to tell me, I guess. Thanks for worrying :) I'm fine :)

Note: this is a neat example of how the economy/"investing a limited resource" viewpoint can generate better life decisions than asking "does this seem like a good idea?" about individual things.