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WTF is this? Please take a step back, and look at what you did here.
Your literally first words on this website are about suicide. Then you say no suicide, and then you explain in detail how people are not supposed to talk about your possible suicide. Half of your total contribution on this website is about your suicide-not-suicide. Thanks; now everyone can understand they are not supposed to think about the pink elephant in the room. So... why have you mentioned it, in the first place? Three times in a row, using a bold font once, just to be sure. Seems like you actually want people to think about your possible suicide, but also to feel guilty if they mention it. Because the same comment, without this mind game, could be written like this:
Much less drama, right?
Next, you provide zero information about yourself. You are a stranger here, and you use anonymized e-mail. And I guess we will not learn more about you here, because you prefer private conversations anyway. However, you "urge" people to contact you, and provide an "appropriately genuine introduction", a brief explanation of their beliefs, and their intent to help you. But they are not supposed to mention your suicide-not-suicide, right? But they are supposed to want to help you. But they are not allowed to suggest seeking expert help. And they are supposed to tell you things about themselves, without knowing anything about you. And this all is supposed to happen off-site, without any observers, inter alie because the word limit on LW messages is problematic. Right. How weird no one else has realized yet how much this problematic word limit prevents us from debating AI-related topics here.
More red flags than in China on Mao's birthday.
I don't think you are in a risk of suicide. Instead, I think that people who would contact you are in serious risk of being emotionally exploited (and reminded of your suicide-not-suicide, and their intent to help). Something like: "I told you that I am ready to die unless you convince me not to; and you promised you would help me; and you know that I will never seek expert help; and you don't know whether anyone else talks to me; so... if you stop interacting with me, you might be responsible for my death; is that really okay for you as a utilitarian?"
If anyone wants to play this game, go ahead. I have already seen my share of "suicidal" people giving others detailed instructions how to interact with them, and unsurprisingly, decades later all of them are still alive; and the people who interacted with them regret having that experience.
I am not sure how to even respond to this. I do not know what drives you to hatefully twist my words, depicting my cry for help as some kind of contrived attempt at manipulation, but you are obviously not acting with anything close to an altruistic intent.
Yes, I am entirely serious about this. Far more than you know. Perhaps if you had contacted me to have an intelligent discussion, instead of directly proceeding to accuse me with many critical generalizations, you would have realized that.
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