Hmmm, it's been a while, but someone pointed me here again, so here goes.

I placed it on motivation because the modeling and planning is easy, if the problem isn't yours.

What to do about it? Talk to someone else. I went to counseling for a year. One of the mistakes I made, and the counselor made, was never just having him suggest a solution. He's all busy "not directing" me, when in fact what I needed was perspective. Going round and round in my head wasn't getting anywhere.

Eventually I think I found some of my motivational perversion, some of my unacknowledged beliefs and choices that explained my bad behavior.