(Just to clarify - I did not actually have to convert, I'm half jewish on the right side, so conversion = observance in this context)
Partially it was the environment. I ended up in an orthodox Jewish school when I came to the US largely b/c I was used to having so many Jewish friends in my math-sci school in USSR. I already had cousins in this school.
The next largest factor is that the specific approach of this school was to claim that Judaism is "rational" and "proved" along these lines. Unfortunately I did not have Methods of Rationality under my belt, but I did like the label. In addition, the best counterarguments to this "proof" actually require some knowledge if Judaism from the inside, which I did not have at the time.
Lastly I'd mention the fact that having survived so long Judaism is a very powerful memetic system. As one example, the Talmud is largely logical and whenever it's not new methods are developed to "reconcile" the inconsistencies; these methods are praised and constitute the main activity of Rabbinical students for millennia. When first exposed to this it's hard to not be impressed, and in my case convinced.
My deconversion should probably be credited to 3 things that occurred at around same time.
Earthquake in Haiti, and seeing bodies of kids piled up by medical workers. I have kids myself and was not even as a religious person arrogant enough to draw distinctions - I realized that with all the explanations and mysteries God does not care about what I have to protect.
I became more open to consider and seek out arguments against the Torah along these lines http://www.talkreason.org/articles/letter1.cfm .
Lastly reading LessWrong (I had interests in biases and AI), things like "Belief in Belief", "Privileging the hypothesis" added a certain amount of reflectivity to my thinking, and also gave me another community with social acceptance to my new set of beliefs.
Hello fellow Less Wrongians!
Given your comments on my organizing communities series, I get the feeling that many of you are wondering why:
I'm happy to hold discussions about any of these questions or related ones. However, I haven't responded to many comments on the main series of posts because:
I wanted to created this thread as a center for questions you might have about my faith. This is not an attempt to preach -- I would be perfectly happy not having a discussion purely about religion at all. But since there seem to be many comments, well, fire away.
Some basic facts: I am a student at Stanford. I am 22. I converted to Mormonism when I was 19. I used to be atheist/agnostic. I am very much a believer, not just in it for the social perks.
Well, as it is written, AMA (= Ask Me Anything)
(Thanks Kevin for the suggestion.)
Edit: Wow, there are a lot of comments. This has been a helpful chance to clarify my thinking. I hope you have learned something useful -- perhaps using the question is 'Is there anything surprising here that he said?'.
Edit 2: Here are some answers to repeated questions. Again, this really helped me distill and clarify myself and I've enjoyed the discussion.
Why do you believe? It's a combination of
I would estimate that before this all happened, my odds ratio was about 2000:1, and now it's about 1:10. I would ballpark the odds ratios of each of the above 3 events as ~12.5:1, ~25:1, and ~62.5:1. (I was considering likelihood but didn't think in that precise of terms at the time, so any concretization is open to charges of ex post facto. And these are still ballparks.)
There are lots of arguments against Mormonism on factual and historical grounds; there are also counterarguments which I feel pretty much balance them out. (The feeling of balancing each other out was contemporaneous.)
What things could make you consider leaving the faith?
Why do you think your conversion story is disappointing to many of us?
Several possible reasons:
[1] Specifically: