Pfft. I'm I'm not giving you validation for pretentious self flagellation and hand wringing. That behavior is not optimised toward maximising personal development but rather for signalling continued submission to a power structure. It's a terribly ineffective strategy for making lasting positive change. Grow a pair, set a goal you can meet, meet it and then I'll give you social validation of the positive kind, not this dubious validation of your virtue for sincerity or shame.

(Approximately my general policy regarding this sort of thing.)