You sound like a fellow who could find a lot to relate to in Stirner about now. Maybe not quite yet. Maybe in another month.

In his terms, your old values had become somewhat fixed ideas, starting to feel like ties and fetters instead of your own will, and now you've turned a frostier eye to them as a valuer judging these values. You are creating yourself anew, feeling free to do so each day, and feel a sense of liberation thereby.

You did so explicitly at first, writing a new plan for yourself - The King is Dead! Long live the King! - but you were surprised that you didn't really feel much allegiance to the new King - that your heart didn't yet beat for these new ideas though your mind accepted them. Maybe your heart was just wary of taking on a new yoke.

You never know what a slave will do once freed of his shackles. And a slave shouldn't really be surprised if it takes him a while to settle on how he wants to spend his days, once liberated. Where to go? What to do? Probably he'd just want to spend some time exploring the possibilities. See the world that is now open to him, before settling down somewhere.

That's a little rambling from my Stirnerbot. If any of that resonates, give him a try.