We might very well want to assign negative utility to the process whereby that happened, for the same reasons as for forcible wireheading.

That's my point, you need to assign utility to processes rather than just outcomes.

That is just a way of not saying what you do. Do, you, in fact, do both, and how much of each?

I am in fact doing both, in this case mostly against utilitarianism.

The correct rational response is to resolve the contradiction, not to ignore it and utter platitudes about the truth lying between extremes.

There is a difference between assuming the truth lies between two extremes, and assigning significant probability (say ~50%) to each of the two extremes. I'm trying to do the latter.