"I hate all of these facts and wish they were not true, which makes me a credible source for them."

I was going to say that the only reason for hating the first was that you were an ethical vegan. But I realize that the more likely reason is because you dislike the field being an example of confused and misleading science and many people so mislead acting counterproductively, in good faith but to no avail.

I hate that too.