If you want to leave this board, but suspect you lack the willpower to do so, then there's a better way than Suicide By Cop. Just scramble your password, add a firewall filter for LW (or a new "lesswrong.com 127.0.0.1" entry in your hosts file) and be done with it.
No need to burn the commons on your way out.
If what you're looking for are reassurances, PMs to those you've positively interacted with are the way to achieve that (no bystander effect, less drama etc.).
If, however, you're drunk, um, don't comment while drunk? Yea, I'm not too good with that one either.
This is meant as honest advice since IIRC I've upvoted you a number of times. (If I hadn't read Why Our Kind Can't Cooperate I might have gone for "Don't cry. You know, like a girl." Luckily I have, so I didn't.)
If, however, you're drunk
Yeah.
If you want to leave this board, but suspect you lack the willpower to do so
I feel like I have a duty before a community that I see massive potential in. To stand up for my values and denounce all the shit I hate here in an articulate, reasoned manner. But I'm very much not up to the task, and this makes me feel frustrated and miserable. And angry at my own impotence in the matter.
It'd be a big amount of work to even call out the most egregious shitty shit here on a regular basis, with some citations and explanations for why I did so. And it feels like people hardly even care.
If it's worth saying, but not worth its own post (even in Discussion), then it goes here.
Of course, for "every Monday", the last one should have been dated July 22-28. *cough*