Is it possible you have a mental disorder or anything of that nature getting in your way? I ask because this sounds a lot like my own experiences with math classes. (I have a visual/spatial problem rather than a math problem, but having a brain that's bad at figuring out how the positions of things relate to other things makes it harder to read math problems without getting confused.)

Depending on what you want to program, it's also possible to get pretty far without a lot of math training. (Although a traditional computer science program probably would require math and physics classes.) This... might be a less thorough route, but it looks like someone can go pretty far as a developer without learning math other than what they pick up in the course of programming. (This coming from a junior undergrad programmer with two internships. So I'm not a very reliable source here. But from what I've done so far, the only things from math classes that I've found myself using for work and class projects are really basic discrete math, mostly formal logic and base 2 numbers.)