As I said:

In my humble opinion; some of the inclusions in your files are likely to make people uncomfortable. (I agree with the above post)

I would like to downvote the post; but instead am doing so verbally for the reason of it needing improvements:

Would you be able to re-model the theory in a more verbose form and for a different problem set. I understand that this is personal results for your personal application of your theory of goal-purpose setting; and that is part of what makes it so hard to interpret and understand to outsiders.

I can understand so much as to get a rough estimate that there may be value in your model of goal-re-affirming, but unfortunately the subject-specific nature of the example makes it hard to understand, as well as likely to be off-putting to a wider audience.

A humble suggestion; to rebuild your model on a worked example; perhaps one that is more mainstream - might help us all to improve on the working model and better understand the nature of the analysis.

(On a personal note; some of the thoughts that you have described are not common among people and would be considered anti-social. It would likely be useful to add to your maps to know that most people do not think in this way.)

On a more general note; This level of purpose-finding may be related to your age-maturity in society; and only applicable to individuals in a similar age-maturity area (of which there are many). Which is not to say that you are immature; but it would seem that these levels of social anxieties do not plague the older-more-mature population; (otherwise there would already exist more similar thought information about it in the public domain). Consider the consequences of the idea that your current road-blocks seem to fade away for most people with the gaining of more age/maturity.

Lastly; some of your thinking goes as far to apply man-with-a-hammer to the very moment-specific problems of your life. I see these thoughts and fears as likely to pass over you in a number of years; it might be helpful to note that what matters now may not matter later. And if you were to move yourself into a fixed-research area into something that makes you uncomfortable you may have difficulty leaving that area and find the entire experience not-enjoyable.

If you want to talk more specifically; feel free to PM me with questions. If nothing else - I would encourage you to diversify and grow your life experience through things like; meeting more people, travelling to distant places, working a minimum wage job - then getting better at it, developing your health/wellbeing activities to include regular exercise, reduction of drug use, reduction of addiction subscribed to, developing your own artform (music; paint; words; sculpture; woodwork), learning more things, teaching things to other people, earning enough money to give away - then giving it away. (you may already be doing some of these; or none of these or all of these)

I hope I have helped.