Everything is logical

Well then, we're done, aren't we? If everything is already logical there doesn't seem to be any point in complaining about lack of logic.

By logic I mean, what has created us, the mathematical patterns.

Mathematical patterns created us? That's an interesting idea.

But OK, let's dive into the pile of the brown stuff in search of a nut, a kernel of something...

So there is an "emotional mind" (which, I think, means the subconsciousness) and the "rational mind" (aka the consciousness). The emotional mind wants things like identity (you probably mean the sense of belonging) and safety. You think the emotional mind is wrong and it should really want... mathematical patterns? Therefore the rational mind should yell at the emotional mind to stop being silly and just do what the rational minds tells it to do? And the emotional mind will say "yes, of course" instead of extending the middle finger, as usual? And if that process actually happens, your complete whole will achieve the mathematical-pattern enlightenment while ignoring the not-important stuff like safety?

And you promise it will be grrrrrreat(tm)?