That was something I failed to get across in my reply, I guess. I feel like I owe a part of my mental composition of today to those experiences, I mean, imagining infinity is not the same as experiencing infinity, and even though it was internally generated, the memories and impressions and rewired synapses are very real. I was fully aware when the effects wore off that it was not "revealed knowledge", but it exposed me to viewpoints and thoughts that I might not have otherwise had access to. My description of the events was my flow of thoughts during the events, not my "usual" philosophy. On a side note, as a child I had the unfortunate combination of truth-seeking and logic, and a strong neurological tendency toward magical thinking. Perhaps my familiarity with walking the line between Spock and Q allowed me the ability to interpret the otherworldly impressions with quiet detachment, while simultaneously benefiting from the sense of wonder they conveyed.