I take it you think nuclear winter is unlikely?
Also, how are you going to get the phosphate fertilizer to grow crops after a nuclear war?
Possibly stupid question: what do you think would happen if you tried to connect with and talk to literal children?
How do you feel about cats?
Is it okay to hang out at a bar if you don't drink?
So, are you turning into Linus Van Pelt, who said that he loved humanity - it was people he couldn't stand?
I think most people have trouble finding people at conventions they can click with, at least for longer than a few minutes, simply because of how hectic and overwhelming things can get...
Maybe you should try an anime convention or Comic-Con instead? (Assuming you have any interest in geeky entertainment topics...)
But yeah, having an experience akin to being a world class musician listening to a middle school band and cringing at how bad they sounded must not have been pleasant.
When I'm talking in person, I'm much, much worse at expressing myself precisely and handling sophisticated ideas - and objecting to stupid ones - than when I have all the time in the world to write something and post it online. :/
Well, I guess we're different. I always want to pet all the dogs and all the cats too.