I've found myself to be overly drawn to the dark arts in general. Whether it's the idea of becoming a Dark Lord, a sith, or using self-deception to achieve my goals (or just my desires). What feels somewhat related is that I am terrified that I would take the option of "blissing out" if it were available. Realizing I am like this and that I need to compensate is all that kept me away from becoming a drug addict.

On first reading this post, my reaction was extreme eagerness. I thought of dozens of applications before I was done reading. I have done the things described, largely intuitively, before ever starting a journey as a rationalist. But after taking a deep breath and saying, "Whoa now," to myself... I think I need to walk away and not think about this until I've worked on myself a bit more.

What makes me uncomfortable is not the suggestions, it's how perfectly comfortable I am with them.