Attempting to process this post in light of being on my anti-anxiety medication is weird.

There are specific parts in your post where I thought 'If I was having these thoughts, it would probably be a sign I had not yet taken my pill today.' and I get the distinct feeling I would read this entirely differently when not on medication.

It's kind of like 'I notice I'm confused' except... In this case I know why I'm confused and I know that this particular kind of confusion is probably better than the alternative (Being a sleep deprived mess from constant worry) so I'm not going to pick at it. Which is not a feeling I usually get, which is why I said it was weird.

However, pretending to view this from the perspective of someone who can handle anxiety effectively, I would say this an excellent post and I upvoted it even though I can't really connect to it on a personal level.