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Things have changed. I finally got over it over the past 24 months, and feel so much better now. I'm just offering explanation for where my apparently aloof tone is coming from – it may seem disrespectful, but it's actually what I need to be mentally healthy: I need to be able to be open about who I am and totally discount people's reactions when they're angry and hostile in response.
For so many years, the egalitarian pressures were suffocating. The irony is that my experience probably actually has a great deal in common with the experience of many LWers on account of being smarter than others earlier on in life – mine is in the same direction, only more extreme. And I couldn't find kindred spirits even here: people who were ok with me being smart and thoughtful even when it signaled superiority in a way that would result in social backlash from mainstream society.
To the extent that I'm dismissive, that's why. A sense of the type "these people aren't on my side, they're in the same reference class as the women who construed me giving them interesting math books as an attempt to coercively obtain sexual favors, when the actual situation was that I was starved for intellectual companionship, and mistakenly thought that they were the same as me and would be happy to have someone to talk to."
I can't talk about other people reacting to you that way, but I can talk about me. My point is, I have zero qualms with your math qualifications, desire to help people, certain philosophical beliefs, or whatever. Moreover, I have zero qualms with you saying you're better than other people, because everybody secretly thinks they are better than other people. That's not the point, people (or at least I personally) have problems with completely different things, and you seem to not get it completely, no matter how people try to explain that.
The problem is: you infer completely wrong things from people's feedback, and that even might be the reason of your previous suicidal tendencies. I don't know how many times you need to be reminded, but LWers are OK (completely!) with you being smart in math, or having original insight, or even coming across as feeling superior.
We read frigging Yudkowsky after all! The guy works on arcane mathy subjects, wrote a shitload of articles, constantly advocates socially weird beliefs (and even accuses other people and society of being weird themselves!), and sometimes uses phraseology that can be construed as smugness and superiority. And let's be honest: even if you're better than him at math (I can't judge), Yudkowsky is bigger than you. He created LessWrong, and who the hell are you?
Yet I have zero problems with Yudkowsky. My point is: I wrote my first comment to you not because I'm upset with your actual achievements or the way you present them.
See, that's the first thing you inferred wrong. I'm not upset. You're just some guy, who failed massively at social communication, so I wanted to point it out, but I was unsuccessful. I'll try again. I'll post some random opinions that you really need to ponder on before dismissing them out of hand.
You said in another comment that you're willing to read good-intentioned criticism with great interest. Here it is. I can elaborate any point. Oh, and Crocker's rules, you can tell me whatever the hell you want.
I find it funny that I'm finally getting the feedback that I needed 25 years ago, from so many people at once. See here and here: over the past ~6 months, I finally started to get it.
Thanks very much for your comment, I appreciate the time that you put into it. The points that you make have largely been made already by other commenters, and I feel a little bit sheepish that you went through so much effort, but I might find your framing of things to be helpful at the margin, even on reflection.
YES YES YES.
I LOVE when things like this happen.
If you find that something is suddenly happening a lot, probably it was always happening and you never noticed. Particularly if it is something that is easy to misinterpret, like advice.