Hypothesis: what you can think is affected by the state of your nervous system.
Have some neurology on the subject-- I'm not jumping to any conclusions about whether you have a background of trauma, these are just the books I know about.
Complex Trauma: From Surviving to Thriving This one has some material about rage getting turned outward or inward.
In an Unspoken Voice: How the Body Releases Trauma and Restores Goodness
If basic common playground bullying counts as one then yes. Hm, it checks out. Boys between 6 and 12 have rather harsh ways of establishing a hierarchy of strength, courage and general ranking and it is possible that it is traumatic in a way that the subject does not even recognize. Does that ever happen that people are conscious about their own coping methods but are not too conscious about the trauma they are coping with?
My problem with the whole theory is that I am prone to pull a reversed stupidity on Freudism. I.e. if Freud was wrong that everything i...
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