There are several factors to consider:

• You are not the same person you were ten years ago, either physically or psychologically. Even if you were not widely considered as attractive back then, that may have changed in the meantime. If that surprises you, it may be because you're assuming you haven't changed anything in ten years, which actually would be reason to worry.

• People's preferences shift over time. Those women, too, have changed in ten years. If they have been seeing you all this time, they may have noticed your changes and decided they liked the end result. If they lost contact ten years ago and are calling you now, they may have reexamined their memories of you under a more mature perspective. In either scenario, it's obvious that their opinion of you has improved.

• Not all men develop at the same rate. You may have been a late bloomer in your teen years, which may have reduced your chances as compared to other men of your generation, but if women are calling you, it appears to be playing in your favor now.

• You appear to be interested in punishing the women who rejected you in the past. However, denying yourself what could be a good time could end up giving yourself more punishment than those women could notice. You don't control their choices. There was no (legal) way you could have done so in your youth, nor should you expect to be able to do it now. The sooner you accept that, and release control over women's choices, the sooner you will be able to let go of the bitterness that paralyzes you.