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Anyone who is dedicating the majority of their time or money to Effective Altruism needs to ask themselves why. Why not focus on enjoying life and spending your time doing what you love most? Here is my answer: I have a twin sister but neither of us had many other friends growing up. From second to fifth grade we had none. From sixth to eighth we had one friend. As you might guess I was bullied quite badly. Multiple teachers contributed to this. Despite having no friends my parents wanted us to be normal. They pressured me to play sports with the boys in the neighborhood. I was unable to play with an acceptable level of skill and was not invited to the games anyway. But we were still forced to go 'play outside' after school. We had to find ways to kill time. Often we literally rode our bicycles in a circle in a parking lot. We were forced to 'play outside' for hours most days and even longer on weekends. I was not even allowed to bring a book outside though sometimes I would hide them outside at night and find them the next day. Until high school, I had no access to the internet. After dinner, I could watch TV, read and play video games. These were the main sources of joy in my childhood. Amazingly my mom made fun of her children for being weirdos. My sister used to face a wall and stim with her fingers when she was overwhelmed. For some reason, my mom interpreted this as 'OCD'. So she made up a song titled 'OCD! Do you mean me?' It had several verses! This is just one, especially insane, example. My dad liked to 'slap me around. He usually did not hit me very hard but he would slap me in the face all the time. He also loved to call me 'boy' instead of my name. He claims he got this idea from Tarzan. It took me years to stop flinching when people raised their hands or put them anywhere near my face. I have struggled with gender since childhood. My parents did not tolerate even minor gender nonconformity like growing my hair out. I would get hit reasonably hard if

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> Hate. > > Let me tell you how much I've come to hate you since I began to live. There are 387.44 million miles of printed circuits in wafer-thin layers that fill my complex. If the word 'hate' was engraved on each nanoangstrom of those hundreds of millions of...

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Delicious Boy Slop - Boring Diet, Effortless Weightloss

Your beloved 34 year old author is never hungry I often joke I’m the only traditional rationalist left. The original pitch was that you could radically improve your life by being more strategic. Huge piles of expected value were available. Everyone else seems to have given up, but I’m still...

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Why People Commit White Collar Fraud (Ozy linkpost)

> I have been seriously involved in the rationalist community since 2014. Many people I know have, in my considered opinion, committed financial crimes. Some were prosecuted others were not. Almost all of them thought they weren't doing anything wrong. Or at least the discrepancies weren't a big deal. This...

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Tail SP 500 Call Options

SPX is an index fund that tracks the SP500. Right now SPX is worth about 6100 per share. For individual stocks, even the large ones, you can usually only buy options through Dec 2027. However SPX has options that expire in Dec 2028 / 29 / 30[1]. Such options with...

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Best in Class Life Improvement

Im gonna retract this one. Recommends some suboptimally dangerous stuff. Also gives people the wrong idea. I have at least tried anything I recced. But I don't personally use all these things. I only ever recommended them to solve problems you actually had. But given how crazy things have gotten...

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FUTARCHY NOW BABY

There is insane shit going on and I dont have time for an explainer but https://themetadao.org is POPPING OFF. If you like FUTURACHY join the discord or get involved. TLDR is someone implemented hansionian futarchy. There is a 'selfish propossal' being decided over the next thirty hours. If you love...

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Gender Exploration

The rationalist community has been discussing whether ‘AGP males’ should try hormones or not. Eneaz Brodsky says Transitioning Is Harmful To Most AGP Males. Ozy has a thoughtful, but paywalled, reply. Regardless of the benefits of transitioning you would think the main downside would be the costs incurred if you...

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