I think that my akrasia manifests itself as agents that vote for the right thing being too weak because the mechanism of positive reinforcement being somehow broken. I mean that when I choose doing the thing that I want, I know that there won't be any pleasantness to experience. If the right things do not feel right, it is much harder to choose them. This is similar to alexithymia. I have talked with psychiatrist about that, and he prescribed aripiprazole. I have been taking it for 4 weeks by now, and I am starting to see the benefits.
This is very similar to the Lifespan Integration Therapy which I had in April 2020. The logic of this therapy is to connect you with your memories and dissolve the past traumas. I think I greatly benefited from it because I have stopped being afraid of certain moments of my life associated with having depression.
In general, I am reading this sequence because one of my dreams is to understand what consciousness and enlightenment are. There are few gears in my current models of these phenomena.
How do you determine the direction of your research?