As I understand it, there is a phenomenon among transgender people where no matter what they do they can't help but ask themselves the question, "Am I really an [insert self-reported gender category here]?"
Humans universally make inferences about their typicality with respect to their self-reported gender. Check Google Scholar for 'self-perceived gender typicality' for further reading. So
Wow really? You came back? How about go fuck yourself. Banned for life is banned for life you fucking troll.
Get out and don't come back. If you never initiate conversation with the admins you will never be allowed back.
The obvious answer is "No". In fact this experience seems suspiciously like trying to make oneself belief that one believes one's gender to be X.
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