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Similar! For me I remember the first letter and the general 'shape' of the name most prominently, so knowing the spelling helps me get the length/shape right primarily, and add in a few pepperings of vowel-bits to round out the whole thing.

This does end up with some names feeling nearly identical in my head — like Stacy and Tracy have the exact same word-shape. (I have better examples but they aren't random-access to maybe I'll edit this in a week or something if I think of them)

I have #1 but if I pay attention the fuzz is actually on all the time over everything. The white background of this page has the distinctive patchy-blobby fuzz going on. How strong this is varies.

Having used both PyCharm and VS Code for quite some time now, but working for a bootcamp that uses VS Code, I've switched to mostly using VS Code for things. It is certainly missing a few nice things from PyCharm, but here's a few comparisons I notice often:

  • Much less resource intensive
  • Much faster startup time (so I can use it for quick text edits with the power of IDE text editing)
  • Almost-as-good debugger (the interface arrangement is just a bit worse, but functionality is very similar for my uses)
  • Strong extension ecosystem
  • Especially well-tuned for web deve
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What parts of https://attachmentrepair.com/ did you get value out of in particular?

Any other specific methods of internal work that you recommend for this kind of self-work?

(This whole area is my main special interest for hobby study, though I still have a long ways to go in my own personal progress, so I will eagerly look into any number of resources that come recommended from people who got real value out of them)

4Kaj_Sotala
I got the most value out of their previous courses / resources on something called "Ideal Parent Figure Protocol", though they're no longer offering that, since there was apparently some kind of a copyright dispute with the person who created that protocol. Archive.org still has their old "resources" page with some guided IPF meditations; I got quite a lot of value from just repeatedly listening to some on a daily basis. They have a revised Attachment Repair course that uses a somewhat different sort of guided meditation instead, while trying to stick to similar principles; I've heard that some people consider the new meditation even better than the old one, but I haven't tried it personally. Doing (some facilitated, some on my own) Internal Family Systems and Bio-Emotive Framework sessions were also useful for me for working through specific hang-ups and issues. Here's what I wrote about IPF back in January; I've been intending to do a longer writeup of it, but haven't gotten around that:
3ChristianKl
Transform Your Self by Steve Andreas is good for working on self-concepts. Kaj worked with it a while with personal improvements that were visible to coworkers and then we (some rationalists in Berlin) had a reading group for it.  To give you one example of what it did for me personally, in 1-2 hours I adopted the self belief of "I'm attractive" that I previously didn't hold. 

Perhaps the thing to make right is to make yourself better able to take advantage of that kind of thing in the future when something similar comes up down the line?

You can always only ever change the future, so mostly I find "what must be made right" is my future behavior around some situation that I've not been acting my best in. I find that really freeing, myself, since it explicitly maps to how there is no sense in beating yourself up about the past as long as you've adjusted your behavior to be better for the future. If you've acted sufficiently on you... (read more)

Context on the timing: I wrote that note about dancing shame about a month ago when I first drafted this post, which was maybe a day or two after having that thought initially.

For the shame around dancing, where I'm at right now:

- I was able to stand up just now (in the privacy of my own room) and do some dancing without much shame coming up at all, which wasn't something I could easily do before. I'm actually slightly surprised by that just now; I expected it to be harder/worse before I got up and did it. Other feelings are coming up when I do it more, bu... (read more)

Huh. Yeah, that is interesting, hadn't seen that before.

What that makes me think of with respect to McLaren's definitions is the difference between the appropriate response to authentic shame ("what must be made right?"), and the usual Obstructed response to applied/manufactured shame — what I think of first is doing a sort of "performative penance", to assuage the social aspect and get social forgiveness without making any actual behavioral changes, probably internalizing it for a while afterward.

But McLaren does mention the exact opposite being a possibl... (read more)

This makes me think of IFS, and how the symbolic unburdening ritual the standard IFS procedure includes only really does anything if you've managed to coordinate with your Protectors well enough for them not want to jump in the way / disrupt it, and if you've connected with and empathized with the Exile strongly enough for the symbolism to resonate for the exile, and for the exile themself to feel ready for and want the changes an unburdening would entail.
Without all those pieces in place, it does end up falling flat and doing approximately nothing except ... (read more)

What is polyethylene glycol resistance? Google isn't turning much up. Or do you mean sensitivity / allergy?

6ChristianKl
Antibody buildup against polyethylene glycol or PEG. One issue of concern was voiced in The Importance of Poly(ethylene glycol) Alternativesfor Overcoming PEG Immunogenicity in DrugDelivery and Bioconjugation: Polyethylene glycol or PEG is the lipid with which the mRNA is coated and it seems the body starts attacking it with repeated treatments.  This means repeated usage of drugs that contain PEG reduces the efficiency per dose and increases side effects. However after speaking with a doctor who told me a lot about the involved gears, I don't think this is a huge deal for giving a human two doses of an mRNA vaccine.