You certainly have a flair for the dramatic.
"aaaaaaaa it hurts please make it stop aaaaa"
Not to seem abrasive, but if you require actual psychological help (and it sure seems like it), this is not the place for it. It can certainly stimulate your mind, but we're here to critically examine each other's thoughts and update as needed, not to provide therapy.
I'm sure you can enjoy being a part of this community, but it's the wrong place to desperately ask for help (over and over) and talk about you hurting so much and being broken, in your first (second) comment. There must be some resources on campus to help you deal with your inner demons professionally. Or your friends that you're so quick to discount as inferior.
but I would be surprised if my intelligence was under +3.5σ, and it feels like at least +5σ (but that sounds hubristic)
You have got to be kidding. At least one in three and a half million (at a rough estimate)? You're lucky I'm a benevolent Nigerian Prince, or I might not take that seriously.
Edit: To those finding this comment needlessly antagonistic, there's a danger in sugarcoating that this is the wrong place for people in immediate psychological distress. If a critically wounded patient turned up at a GP's office, it would be actively damaging to say "you've come to the right place, we'll treat you here". Without labelling the parent poster as such, would you as part of an internet community want to assume responsility for someone at risk of self-harm, or at risk of suffering further psychological trauma? If not, you've got to tell them in no unclear terms.
...Edit: To those finding this comment needlessly antagonistic, there's a danger in sugarcoating that this is the wrong place for people in immediate psychological distress. If a critically wounded patient turned up at a GP's office, it would be actively damaging to say "you've come to the right place, we'll treat you here". Without labelling the parent poster as such, would you as part of an internet community want to assume responsility for someone at risk of self-harm, or at risk of suffering further psychological trauma? If not, you've got to t
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