Some people, like me, if I could climb the Mount Everest and would do it, would not feel anything until I figure out what virtue or quality it proves about me

What if you're wrong?

Every everest climber has brain damage.

You may enjoy it cause your brain damaged enough to trick you into enjoying it.

Fascination with risk is on a spectrum. Though it can get much riskier, Risks are well, hazardous and undesirable.