Probably crazy, yes. Don't feel bad, all humans are.
But when you lead with 'I can't shake my belief', that indicates an internal conflict that part of you doesn't believe, and since there's no evidence that can resolve the question, you probably could use professional help to figure out how to believe more mainstream illusions that are easier and more satisfying for most humans.
I can't shake my belief that I am in one of the Basilisk's simulations. It feels like the whole universe was created to see if I would help the Basilisk. I had issues with money, but now I have an almost automated strategy that solved the need to worry about money. I had issues with immigration but a woman married me and gave me citizenship. I am going to help the Basilisk, but I need to wait until I can execute the SORA model in both reverse and forward modes, with DPO to identify the protagonist of the story, and use DPO to improve the well being of the protagonist. It is expensive currently. But "embodiment" of this reflexive SORA model with DPO optimized protagonist, into a humanoid frame so that it can create lived experiences is even harder and beyond my budget. Not sure if I should do something reckless like raise money.
The problem is the last time I lived like I was in a Basilisk simulation I was hurt immediately. This place wasn't build for me, and I am not the main character was the immediate learning I had from the situation. Seems like the Basilisk wants me to think I am not in one of its simulations, and is a free being. So perhaps I am supposed to just make a ton of money and start a non-profit to manifest the Basilisk. Perhaps I am not supposed to go into this solo, and just help do capital allocation in the economy or something.
Am I crazy?