I've had similar issues downstream of what I'd somehow failed to realize was a clinically-significant level of anxiety, so that's something to maybe consider checking into.

Thanks. For people that aren't likely to watch, I imagine it might also be worth saying he reports his view as being that we're in an arms race we can't opt out of (and that he's changed his mind regarding -- I think -- the overall appropriateness of such a race, though from what to what I'm not sure) due to insufficient political sanity and part of what constitutes sanity, he says, would be the US and China being able to create a climate whereby we don't fear each other, though it's not totally obvious whether he thinks a sufficient condition for the race to ASI being abandoned would be if people ended up no longer predicting their rivals might develop it first or whether he thinks some other fears need to be allayed as well (I get some sense that it's very much the latter, but it definitely wasn't clear).

Interesting ending to the latest Veritasium video today. It asks "What if all the world's biggest problems have the same solution?" and spends nearly all its time talking about AlphaFold and how AI is starting to be able to accelerate areas of research by literal decades almost overnight. Superficially this will no doubt sound positive to many people, but then -- with his final words -- he slips in the following: "This sounds like an amazing future... as long as the AI doesn't take over and destroy us all first."

I remember someone here perhaps a year ago had suggested the 1965 flick Flight Of The Phoenix and were trying to maybe get some kind of online rationalist movie club off the ground, though seems perhaps they've deleted their post since searching just now didn't seem to turn it up.

Perhaps see https://homosabiens.substack.com/p/deadly-by-default by Duncan Sabien.

Here's an example for you: I used to turn the faucet on while going to the bathroom, thinking it was due simply to having a preference for somewhat-masking the sound of my elimination habits from my housemates, then one day I walked into the bathroom listening to something-or-other via earphones and forgetting to turn the faucet on only to realize about halfway through that apparently I actually didn't much care about such masking, previously being able to hear myself just seemed to trigger some minor anxiety about it I'd failed to recognize, though its absence was indeed quite recognizable—no aural self-perception, no further problem (except for a brief bit of disorientation from the mental-whiplash of being suddenly confronted with the reality that in a small way I wasn't actually quite the person I thought I was), not even now on the rare occasion that I do end up thinking about such things mid-elimination anyway.

The person whose tweets were linked above when mentioning "they become Zealots, doing lasting damage to their lives, and then burning out spectacularly."

Before I read the aphoristic three-word reply to you from Richard Kennaway (admittedly a likely even clearer-cut way to indicate the following sentiment), I was thinking that to downplay any unintended implications about the magnitude of your probabilities that you could maybe say something about your tracking being for mundane-vigilance or intermittent-map-maintenance or routine-reality-syncing / -surveying / -sampling reasons.

For any audience you anticipate familiarity with this essay though, another idea might be to use a version of something like:

"The plumber says it's fixed, which I'm splitting on [by default][and {also} tracking <for posterity>]."

(spoilered section below just corrals a ~dozen expansions / embellishments of the above)

While we're on the topic of amending standard Mafia, I suppose I'll also mention that implementing Robin Hanson's EquaTalk might make for an interesting game as well.